April 28, 2007

Today is our 2 year anniversary! It seems like only yesterday we were just friends getting to know each other, and at the same time it feels like we have been married FOREVER!!

I feel like Terry and I have grown so much these past 2 1/2 years that we have been together, we have learned ( somewhat, Terry better than me) when to pick of fight and when to just let it go. We have gotten into and out of debt together, we have moved 4 times in our short 2 years of marriage, got 2 dogs, got rid of 1, been to San Diego twice and out going again in May, we have been to Tennessee. We have lost jobs and lived on nothing, but managed it just fine. We have gotten pregnant, been sealed and have had a baby!

Life really is going good for us, Yes we have had struggles but doesn't everyone, we have great families who love and support us both! We have the cutest little boy ever that makes us laugh and fall more in love with him everyday with the cute things he does!

I love Terry so much and even though I get mad at him I can't imagine my life with out him, he provides for his family and works extra days to support us, he loves me for me and never complains when the house is dirty or when I don't look my best!

Terry I love you and I am looking forward to many more years and anniversary's together!!

Whats WRONG with ME?

This post is not meant to be a poor Heather post, more of a if you have any helpful suggestions please share..

Do you ever have those days, weeks, or months when you feel like you have no friends? Or perhaps you have no desire to do your make up/hair. Clean the house? Or just sit and do nothing?

I have been feeling like this for a while, I know that the friends I do have, have there own life and that every time I want to all get together or do something with one of them they can't just drop everything to come and do things with me.

And then I have those days where I don't want to do ANYTHING with ANYONE just be at home alone.

I wonder also, can you experience baby blues or PPD when your child is almost a year?

Sometimes I think MAN what I would give to work a couple days a week, but I really don't want to do that and I know that I am lucky to have the privilege to do that. My mom was with us kids until my youngest brother was in school and now she is back working to help support the family, so I know that I am lucky to not have to work.

Don't get me Wong I LOVE TITAN, I just think that every new mother or perhaps a mother of 6 has those days when the kid or kids try their patients. RIGHT? So am I going crazy?

I try sometimes to just get up and get ready for the day, but WHY? I know I'm not going anywhere that day and think why waste makeup? Or put the energy into it.. I weigh this much over what I want to and YES I know I don't go to the gym every day or twice a week that I am signed up for my that has NEVER been a big thing for me.

I feel so unattractive and all the sudden my face is breaking out ( NO I'M NOT PREGO) I just feel so moody all the time and feel like no one likes me, I have NEVER EVER been the type of person to care what people think of me, but now I find myself just wanting someone to talk to, to let it all out.. But I don't want to bother someone with my poor sad feelings I have..

PLEASE don't get this post wrong, I LOVE MY FAMILY, I love Terry and Titan with all that I am, they are my life!

Heather

New FAMILY Pictures ( March 09 )

I just LOVE these new family pictures that our good friend Chantel Allen took for us, she should DEF go professional I think she could make some good money! Thanks again Chantel!

Titan 9 months

Update

I love to read other's post from there blogs and look at yours prob everyday in hopes that you have posted something new.. NOPE and then I think to myself " dang, update already, its been a whole WEEK", and then I look at my last post, It was back in FEB... SO I guess I need to update..



Terry, Is working and going to school ( thank goodness for a Job), He just took some finals and passed with A's. He is ready to be working back at the mine and not working at his school. He HAS TO HAS TO be at least 15 min early to class or school, Yes I know its good to be early to those things but 15 min! I give him crap about it all the time, he could spend 10 more min with us but he says to me that "it's a guy thing" Just like its " a girl thing" to be right on time... WHATEVER :) He is really enjoying Titan more and more and loves to just lay on the floor and play with him! He just got a new shot gun a couple weeks back and has gone shooting any chance he can get.



Heather, I'm not doing much of anything these days, Take care of Titan and try to keep the house clean, it so hard doing that when I feel like I clean and clean and its still looks dirty!! Good thing WERE MOVING this weekend we should be moving into a brand new Duplex, its 3 bedrooms, and it has a washer and dryer and a garbage despoil!!! Downside - NO DISHWASHER, but oh well its brand new and we got brand new furniture to go in our brand new place, feels like Christmas. I was able to go up to Mesa over night a couple weeks back, the plan was to hang out with my Sister in Laws and their girls, but plans were cut short, but it was still fun to see them and get a couple shots of the 3 cousins together, ( sorry, I forgot my camera) but when Zonnie send me the CD I'll be sure to post them ( hint hint Zonnie) :) But it was so good to see a old friend of mine from Snowflake and her little boy, And my favorite old Roommate MARY ANN!! and to spend some time with Kiea and Cory!



Titan, is in to EVERYTHING!! I swear he will eat any thing and every thing if I don't keep and eye on him, he's getting a pretty tough head with all the spills he's taken with trying to walk and falling backwards, Poor boy. But he really is our pride and joy, Yea sometimes I get so frustrated I could pull my hair out!! But I love him so much, and I can't believe that in 3 more months my baby is going to be ONE!!



I am so grateful for all that I have, espesically my Testimony of the Church and how I know that my family will be together forever! What an awesome gift from our Heavenly Father, and all we have to do is be obedient, but I wouldn't have it any other way!! I love my family.